It’s Sunday so I guess I’m not surprised I’m reading this blog post like a TV avagelist would – GHOSTFACE Buuuhhhhhleeeeeaves! Yesterday’s blog post was Write about something you believe in. It can be anything at all! – I in fact, was supremely inspired yesterday so I’ll share that for the post. Normally, I would use this kind of post to channel a joke of what I believe in – like ‘cats without hair’ ‘crafts’ or dare I say ‘occult themes.’ However, yesterday I saw Gravity. Now I know what some of you are thinking – especially my female readers – “Oh a scary/thriller Sci-Fi movie… whatever.” To be honest I kind of felt the same way about it. I didn’t want to see it because I thought it would be like Apollo 13 or some tragic movie about how we as humans are not supposed to be FIDDLIN‘ in space.
No but rather, this movie has to be one of the most inspiring movies I have ever seen. I’m lucky I have a friend here in Chicago who pushed me to see it – as he always does push me to see things in a new light. I don’t want to give away the plot or anything like that, but I identified with this film so much it made me want to burst out crying when it was over. To me it was, if you will ‘Ghostfaceknitter’s biography BUT in space.” Obviously, I’ve talked a little about HUGE changes I’ve made in my life over the past year, but this movie made me realize how those struggles/changes/challenges are what makes me stronger every single day. I don’t wanna get morose or ‘woe is me’ here, but there were times especially over this and last summer where it would have been easy to just sit back and ‘fail.’ Now when I say ‘fail’ I mean I could have taken the easy way out. I could have just stayed in Denver, I could have not come to Chicago, I could have not found my job, I could have kept living a ‘nowhere man’ lifestyle, and most importantly I could have stayed in a relationship that made me – not me at all. It would have been so easy to keep doing those things I was comfortable with. Hell, at least I knew what to expect! I guess, you as my readers inspire me to do more. You know I believe in ‘DO’ and in being the best you can be.
There are times when I get bummed out – I’m in a different city, more or less alone, but I just can’t keep thinking about how amazing my life is now. I made it this way. I didn’t decide to lay down and take the ‘easy’ route. I sought out, for me anyways, the road way less traveled and sometimes lonely – but this ‘authentic me’ I’m finding is one amazing babe.
I just really believe in trying to be a better version of me every single day. I made a lot of mistakes and have a few major regrets about things, but overall I had to make them to get right here. When the nights get long, the crafts grow few, and the animals don’t feel like cuddling, I just have to remember that I am the authentic me and I am so happy I have not given up on being the best me.