Of course I changed a TON of things in my life this summer, but I will be really candid here in saying the best epiphany that occurred to me was that I should always come first. Has it gotten to the point where I’m annoying about this ‘authentic self’ yet? Over the summer I realized that I had given so much of myself away in the hopes that someone would finally come around and change/give back for me that I had essentially lost myself entirely. I felt like I wasn’t able to do anything that I really wanted – ever. Not to mention I didn’t stand for anything really and was someone I didn’t want to be. I also accepted that I cannot drink at all anymore. I’m sure many of you have known me to throw back a few over the years, so it may be shocking that suddenly I’m sober, but it is the best gift I have given myself. The time was right to cut that out of my life in a rather un-dramatic way. I can look back now seeing how much I’ve done and just kind of wonder where I would be if I had phased that out a long time ago. But, I digress since giving that up was not a big deal at all. I finally feel like I’m on fire. I’m able to concentrate, give the appropriate amount of energy and be motivated about anything I choose.
I generally dislike summers because they require me to re-examine my life and my status quo. This summer was no exception and ultimately, I walked away with the foundations for the authentic self that I am falling hard in love with everyday as well as the gifts of joy and contentment through sobriety. You should always put yourself first. I learned that over the summer and now that it is deep into Fall, I have never been more content and happy.
The blog challenge for Sunday was “A time when you felt unstoppable” – this is easy.
It’s right now.
I don’t think I’ve ever been so ‘on’ in my life. I have a clear head – I have hobbies – I have goals – I have connections – I have fun – I have healthy relationships – I have awesome animals – I’m eating well/feeling great – my job is rocking – plus I have some majorly insane travels and tattoos coming up.
I’ve talked a lot about ‘DO’ and the only reason my life is so unstoppable and ‘on’ right now is because I just started doing. Reaching that authentic self is so exciting. I’m meeting new people who not only share my interests, but are supportive and kind. By doing, I have put that positive energy out into the world and it is finally coming back ten-fold for me. I can promise you this I will never compromise again. Ever. Being the authentic me I am supposed to reach is what makes me unstoppable.
I had so much fun doing the October Blog Challenge with Mary over at Mary Speaks that I decided to find a new challenge for November! Although we shall see how it goes towards the end of the month because remember I’m jet-setting to Thailand for Thanksgiving!!!! … BUT I digress.
This new monthly challenge is hosted by A Happy Girl and the prompts are really sweet and fun so here we go!
Nov. 1st: One of the best lessons life has shown you
The best lesson I have been shown is that you never ever know what life will bring you. Just 5 years ago I would have never thought I would be in Chicago, be having a total blast, have THREE animals, and be surround with the most amazing family and friends. I never in a million years would think the people who I love the dearest would be in my life at all. I have made my life what it is, but I’m mystified at how perfect things have turned out. I can only say I am incredibly excited for everything that is to come!